Due to the life situations, I have been through has drawn a challenging 20 years. The past 5 years specifically I have had to really dig deep do a lot of research, visit a physiologist, speak to friends, read books, punch a wall or two, drink a few beers all to find answers as to why I wasn't the Ben Bowie I wanted to be or knew I could be. Why am I feeling like this, why am I overthinking conversations I have had, why am I confused, why do I keep starting new business I am not interested in, what have I missed out on in life by losing my dad and brother, how is my family handling it, are we normal.....
I can actually remember back 17 year's at uni when I first felt the effects of loneliness and unsettled even among many close friends.. Back then I had no idea what it was or that anything was wrong... Goddam I wish I had thought.. I would have loved to have dealt with it then.. but how was I to know I had something I needed to fix. It turns out loosing my two role models to me was losing my rocks, and support system.. However, in my mind, nothing had changed except I had lost my dad and brother... That's how I tried to view it anyway. I was invincible after all.
I created this section to share some content and pieces of life I know or have learnt through my own deep dives into humans and my own life journey.. Nothing too technical at all. We are amazing at overthinking and over complicating life and situations.. This is about bringing a lighter and simpler view on everyday situations, as light or heavy as they may be.
Life is simple till we complicate it. Usually, about the time when we go to school and are put into subjects, we have no interest in. It kind of sets you up for accepting status quo, and that other people know best, developing tendencies to care about others opinions so much, thinking you are meant to do as you are told or by trying to please others too much.
Thinking for yourself, taking control of 100% of your own life is part of your job as a human... part of that is training yourself to not be confused by your conflicting subconscious thoughts.
This part of my site is part of my own journey and self-fulfilment. Writing this will probably allow me to gain even more insights into myself too. However, It's a way for me to give back to other people and the world I have for many years taken for granted. I have learned a lot of hard lessons, but I want to turn them into a positive and not have them just be lessons for me.
Something I firmly believe in is fast-tracking your learning.. e.g Understanding simple life hacks and knowledge you potentially could have learnt 10 years ago if someone just told you in the right way. However you can be told something 10 times over and you still won't 'get it' or actually understand its meaning until the timing was right, or the message was clear enough for your way of learning...
I hope you enjoy my insights/humour/informative content and at times random vlogs. As really I'm just getting my thoughts down for you to enjoy and make use of in your own daily life... So I do hope my writing and videos can provide the life insights my lack of awareness or direction at times in life didn't provide me.